Saturday, April 14, 2007
Why am I so obsessed with things being just right in my life? Why can't I just enjoy things, let loose, and have fun? I am constantly thinking about things that pretty much in the scheme of life are not of real importance. Like, my house is not clean, my kids are misbehaving, I didn't spend enough time doing this or that, should I/my kids be involved in more activites, etc., etc. And then there are some things I think about that are of importance, but I probably over analyze and think about too much: should I start Addie in kindergarten, am I using the right discipline techniques, am I providing my kids with opportunities for their talents and energies to florish, am I modeling Jesus to my family and others, am I a good wife and mother. I just can't stop "thinking". I wish I could just let things happen naturally, enjoy them, and trust God (knowing whether I "think" about them or not, he is in control..not me). Does anyone else do this, or do I really need some medication to help me chill out!?!